I can do this.  I can write a blog.  I am smart.  Thank you Sylvia.  I just wish you would have taken your own advice and used it about life itself.  It makes me sad to think of all you have given the world yet cheated your own children. The worst enemy to life is self-centered pain.  Each of us must use our pain for others.  Learning to heal is the whole point of living.  And by the way, it takes guts to live (although you can improvise).  Sylvia, I’m sorry I just can’t get over the selfishness.